Wednesday, January 9, 2008

Confusion.....

Its been two weeks since I had that deeper meditation experience and I haven't been able to sit and concentrate ever since. I try, God knows I do but the end result is nothing. Wonder where am I going wrong or have I run out of steam ? Hope I haven't become too smug. I hope that thinking about what to write on this blog and how to write my next post hasn't taken toll on my meditation. I am going to try and try till I succeed...or maybe I shouldn't try too hard. Maybe its this trying too hard which is proving to be my down fall.......well as you wish so shall it be.......the one above.

7 comments:

Thoughtscape said...

Dear Anuradha,
Your innate psychic abilities your willingness to use it for the better good, have a great impact to all of us. I am so proud your mother and father dedicated their lives teaching others how to open the doors of our wonderful minds. Your stories about your success in the meditation field gave us a positive impute, also when you fail it tells us that it is OK to fail even if you are a master in the field. I will always like you a lot with the same intensity weather you succeed or fail, even when you fail you shine. I watched yesterday Hillary Clinton winning in New Hampshire for the primary, there were moments when I thought she will loose, she lost in Iowa so it was important for her to win, I like her and I hope she will make it and becomes the first American woman president, still she has to win in so many other states in the weeks and months to come, I like her even when she looses.
Maybe your confusion is a quest, maybe subconsciously you are willing to wait for the rest of us to "catch up" with you or at least one of us, to validate for yourself that whatever you do on your blog has a sublime meaning, and you believe that this is the only way to unleash the meditative abilities in the rest of us by pushing us to try harder until we succeed... lots of love, thank you for allowing me to like you, Octavian.

QuoteGuy said...

Hi Anuradha,

I was just stopping by to say hello. The Universe always answers. Especially to those who are active seekers of knowledge and purpose. I am proud of you for even wanting to go on such a deep spiritual journey. Thank you for being so open with your quest. Many blessings!

Quoteguy (Dexter)

The Transparent Hypnotist said...

I would not worry too much about not having a deep meditative experience again (or blogging, though if you think it is a problem you may need to explore it). Many meditation teachers (and books) say that it is easy to get addicted to meditation phenomena and not progress beyond the experiences. The phenomena is neither good nor bad. It just is. Just enjoy the meditation you do for itself, each time is something different. We get caught up in expectation and wanting something to be like it was before, and then we are disappointed when it does not happen again. Does this make sense?

In other words, I think you are just fine. You have a beautiful blog. Better things are ahead.

Sincerely,
Ellie

Anuradha malik Jagdhari said...

Thanks so much Octavian, you are always a positive influence. Don't worry I am not as dejected or worried as sound here. Just confused.....

Anuradha malik Jagdhari said...

Hi Quoteguy,
thanks for not just stopping by to have a look but taking time out to leave such a positive comment.

Anuradha malik Jagdhari said...

Thanks Hypnotist for appreciating my blog. I like yours too. In fact hypnosis is one thing which has always intreguied me, especially after reading' many lives many masters'. I graduated with honours in psychology and this has been on my mind ever since. I wish I could learn it some day or atleast try it out...:-)

Komila said...

Hi Anuadha,

That is not a good feeling especially when you meditate and feel the peace within...

May be you are doing the meditation with the sense of doership...

Leave it to God and may be that will help,

Correct me if i am wrong.

Take care
Komila
http://swadhayaay.blogspot.com